The Life of a Young Emetophobic

Crap

Ugh, I’m home alone and not feeling too awesome. I’m super gassy right now and crampy because of the gas plus my period still hasn’t come, thanks stress, thanks a lot. Now I’m over a week late and getting impatient and grumpy; I hope it comes soon, I always feel better when I get it. I’m finally going to see a GI tomorrow, to get to the end of all my stomach issues! Really excited to be honest, I don’t think I’ve ever been so excited to see a doctor. I can finally find out what’s wrong besides my lactose intolerance and now I’ll know what to do when these things happen and how to control it. :)

I’ll post tomorrow… my appointment is at 11:00 AM I believe, thankfully bright and early. :D

Sinus Infection….

Yesterday when I was leaving for school, my whole face slowly began to feel like it had been slammed into my locker. It hurt so bad, I took two Advil and hoped for the best. It didn’t get any better as the day progressed, in fact it got worse.

Now I’m sure I have a sinus infection, as Advil did nothing but the nasal spray called Avamys that I used from last year has made it feel so much better! I took some last night, immediate relief. Now when it started to hurt again, immediate relief. At least I have something that’s making me feel better.

I think I’ll survive… as long as sinus infections can’t make you vomit.

10 Random Things About Me

1) My name is Kailyn, & I’m twelve years old. Yes, I’m twelve, seriously.

2) I’m obsessed with One Tree Hill & anything One Tree Hill related. Want to be my best friend? Talk to me about One Tree Hill or James Lafferty, my other obsession.

3) Yes, I’m obsessed with One Tree Hill & I’d probably die without it but I’m more so obsessed with music, but One Tree Hill ties into that. Without music I’d be insane. It’s always there to help me get through the tough, stressful, anxiety filled times. I have a fairly diverse taste in music; anything except for stupid pop chart toppers & country music.

4) My current favourite artist/band is Arcade Fire. I was on YouTube one day searching for my friends YouTube channel & I some how came across The Suburbs by Arcade Fire. Instantly became my favourite song & I’ve loved them ever since.

5) In case you didn’t know, I’m emetophobic. (I know my blog title doesn’t make sense, at all!)

6) When I’m older I hope to be in the music business, I want to work for a record label in some way. I play the piano by ear quite well & I’m learning the guitar but I can’t sing so I don’t think being a musician would work out well for me.

7) I was feeling fine but now my stomach hurts, well my back hurts, it’s always confusing because either my stomach ache morphs into a back ache or my back ache morphs into a stomach ache. Shoot me.

8) I live in Vancouver, Canada. It doesn’t rain here all the time, by the way. & yes, to answer those questions, of course we have igloos in our back yards & moose’s as pets, why the hell wouldn’t we!?

9) I’m currently drinking apple juice, one of my many other obsessions. I’ve always loved apple juice. When I was two, I went into the fridge & shouted, “I want some fucking apple juice mom!” Yes, it’s true, my mom told me this story.

10) I’m writing my last fact about me now.

I’ve come to some fascinating conclusions. (Not really fascinating, just like that word.)

I’ve come to the conclusion that all the nausea I’ve experienced today was either:

A) Because of my lack of sleep these past few nights, particularly last night, slept four hours at the absolute most.

B) Because of my period, even though I’ve never experienced nausea like this before without the cramps.

C) All in my head and anxiety caused. I’ve been so on edge about this stomach virus lately that I wouldn’t doubt that I made myself feel weird. I don’t even think I was truly nauseous, I think my stomach was unsettled and that feeling in my throat that feels like air is coming up made me feel sick (that to me is a sickening feeling,). Yes my stomach felt weird but not really sick, more like “Ah, I’m scared..”.

Now I’m alright; I went shopping, bought some awesome things (I shall post pictures just because I want more distractions,) and ate some delicious pizza at Fresh Slice. I love their pizza; I hate tomato sauce and tomatoes since they always bother my stomach (and they make my brother vomit,) and at least for the pizzas I always order (either plain cheese or cheese and chicken,) they don’t use tomato sauce; it’s delicious! I stuffed myself, then regretted it because I had such sharp pains and bloating (cheese and lactose intolerance, hmm….) then I went to the record store and felt better though!

I haven’t had any diarrhea today either… which I will “tmi” admit is unusual for me. This is a good thing though obviously. Also means that I don’t have a stomach flu, well I already knew that I didn’t but I scared myself so much this morning.

Tonight I’m going to take a nice warm bath, drink my third cup of peppermint tea today, eat a delicious dinner, get into my cozy pajamas, do that homework that was due on Friday, take my Zoloft and go to sleep! Hopefully I sleep decent tonight since I know I’m not sick!

:)

Peace out to the world.

Oh God, I feel horrible. Being on the computer for a certain amount of time makes me feel like crap, I think it’s time to get off, I’m way too tired to even attempt to focus on the screen & I keep sneezing. I think I’m getting a cold again… my throat hurts, too. How fun.

Peace.

everythingitseems:

I wish I could hibernate until spring. My emetophobia is so much calmer in the spring months (usually unless you count 2010..)

I second this. I’m always much calmer in the Spring/Summer, with the exception of last year when I had lots of stomach/digestive issues. Winter is such a horrible time for emetophobics, I can’t wait until March.

Doesn’t it suck when you get a crappy sleep? Most definitely.

I had a terrible sleep last night.

I finally decided to attempt some sleep at 1:30 (AM). I felt more relaxed & calmed. Then I woke up at 3:30, started running around my mind again & panicked at some cramps & my active stomach. I got up & came back to the computer of course, which I was on until at least 5:45.

Then, I attempted sleep again & probably fell asleep around 6:00, but I woke up again at 7:15.

Yeah, lovely sleep.

Today I’m actually going to attempt trying to nap, something I rarely do. The other night I managed to have an hour long nap which is a record for me, except it was like 6:00 at night so it was a little different.

Hope all goes well today… I really need some sleep, there’s school tomorrow… :(